it's pretty scary to see my frens all so stressed up over prelims and the big A
my fren wanted counselling from my tutor.
she's having bad dreams every night/cldnt get to slp/cried thru the night
and she keep imagining herself throwing her stuff ard.
and then suddenly ms D asked me if i slashed my wrist.
LOL.how funny.
sweetie asked me the same qn a few days back.
it's so hilarious how some ppl think of me.
i guess it just tt i dun share my problems with ms D(or anyone else)as compared to my frens.
i dont feel comfortable sharing my feelings with others.
and it doesnt really help much by talking to her.
i rather deal with this alone.
and come on' it's just stress. i noe i can take it.

finally survived thru dis horribleterrible week.
with all the lecture tests/class tests/timed practice/mock exams pouring in,
i feel so tired out from this endless cycle...
sometimes i wish i cud just go into hiding and mediate
i dislike the crowds.
i miss that peace within.
my mind jus go twirling every min now with all the chunks of knowledge floating ard.

have been constantly having dreams dis few weeks.
and sometimes i wld continue the same dream the next night.
and i realized all those appeared in my dreams are those that had leave a deep impression in my life/are impt people/people whom ive missed so much.
i duno what does this mean.i jus noe my mind seems to overwork even in the night
i'll wake up feeling as if my mind has been on an adventure.
it feels super heavy.
i hate this feeling.

i realized i have dis phobia of taking the lifts
i always tot im only afraid of lifts tt have windows at the doors.
but now im even afraid when im taking the lifts w/o the windows.
im afraid the lift would break down
the lights wld go off
and the door wld open and all i see are walls and wires.
and im trapped in between the levels.
and then all the sudden, the wires wld snap and the whole lift wld fall beyond the first floor.
i wonder what is really gg on in my mind.

omgosh.the long awaited 5day holiday is gg to be over soon.
life will get so much harder without having such holidays to look forward to.
this will be the very last time i enjoy myself before alvls.
so....i went out with sweetie on thurs(:
this is the fourth time i watched the fireworks with him.
and each time it gives me a very different feeling.
the first time we watched was when we were still frens.
we caught an early afternoon movie and reached esplanade quite early
there was some carnival gg on and we had our dinner there.
we waited for quite long before the fireworks starts....
and the night ended with him giving me a necklace.

this yr we meet up early and watch secret!
my boy is a major jay fan.
we were afraid that we cant get good seats,
so we catch the first show at ps. see how kiasu we are.haha.
anyway the movie was great. way better than curse of the golden flowers.
sweetie ended up saying tt he wants to learn the piano.
but i think he shld stick to rowing his boat.haha.


after the show, we mugged at macs from 1plus to 7pm.
ate 2 large fries and 1 macflurry.



i caught him eating my macflurry,
reading my fone and taking video of me!!!

so i had to take some of his shots(:(:

and after much compromising, we finally settle down to take one shot tgth.(:(:

we reached cityhall quite late.wanted to squeeze into the crowds. but it was alr too crowded.

so we decided to stay out of the squeezing.and still had our fair share of fireworks(:it's not abt the place.nor the fireworks.it's more abt the company.

and im glad i have you there.(:(:

so finally all the hustle and bustle abt mids yr are gone
im done with moaning over my results...so it's time to move on.
time wait for no man.so i shall not dwell on what's over.
87more days. just tt little more.


headed down to bedok reservior to support sweetie on his final race day.
thanks wanyan for accompanying me(:
this was the biggest event for him and im proud of him.(:(:



this is him rowing towards the starting pt.
i had such a hard time figuring out whether this was him.haha.
but now im sure this was.











he was leading by a bit initially..





















and den the gap became bigger..




















and then finally he won the race by dis much.






















now that his canoeing days are temp over,
he has more time for me(:and sch work.
and of course im happy.
but i hope he can keep this passion of canoeing.
cos canoeing has let me see a very different side of him.